I've been avoiding the blog. I keep thinking of fun, witty things to write and file it away for "another time." I guess you have to start somewhere, right? First and foremost, all are doing fine including Erik and my pregnancy. On to other things...
Let us start with Erik.
Erik is en route to his final destination at some point soon. At present he is in Iraq awaiting transport to his end point. They left Alaska somewhere around September 20 on over to Kuwait with a stop over in Ireland. While in Ireland, Erik was able to meet up with another Doc out of Walter Reed. He sounded quite surprised and happy that he got to have lunch and catch up on some folks still up at WRAMC. I, myself, would've been thrilled with seeing a friendly face on my way to uncertainty. Once arriving in Kuwait, Erik began his stay in a tent with AC and filling the time with some sick call and wandering Camp Buehring. According to his reports, the PX has plenty, there was a Starbucks, quite a choice of food options. On to the next layover within Iraq until the final destination. (I have to say, does every military move feel the same? This is a deployment and still it is eerily familiar to a military move.)
However, through it all as far as communication goes, we've been able to talk on the phone so much more than I imagined. The kids are not always around when he is able to call and the lack of direct communication via web cam is certainly missed. Gordon has resorted to watching slide shows on the computer and talking to the Daddy pictures as if he were chatting with Erik on web cam.
I can wholeheartedly say, as I did to Erik today, our situation today is so much better than it was ten years ago. You see, we were apart for about 9 months then for Basic Training, AIT, Airborne, and RIP... Ranger Indoctrination something or other. In reflecting on that time we chuckled at how far we've come:
Then
Newly engaged
Erik was heavily restricted on movement as he was training.
Waiting in lines to talk on the phone for Erik, disappointment if I missed the call for me.
I was teaching kids, not caring for them 24/7.
We were at relative peace, Erik wasn't going into a war zone, he wasn't a doctor or a father or a husband.
I was muddling through my last year of college, nowhere near thinking I'd be a mother one day or a military wife supporting the home front expecting tax deduction #4 waiting for a year to be over before it begins.
We were so, so young... or was it naive?
Now
Married nearly 10 years (April 2009).
Erik can freely roam any US post/base he is on barring safety hazards.
Waiting in lines to talk on the phone for Erik, disappointment if I miss the call for me and our gaggle of kids.
Obviously we are not at peace, Erik is in a war zone, he is a doctor and husband and father of almost 4!
I am still knocked out cold on what has happened to me in these years.
How can I still feel so young? At times too young to fully realize the magnitude of what this year will signify for us. Or is it naivete?
If I could talk to us then with what we know now...
"Despite the unconventional routes you will take to accomplish some monumental achievements, you will enjoy your time together. You will look back at the upcoming decade with pride, humor, admiration of your struggle together, but most of all you will revel in the sweat in tears that have made such a wonderful life." I wouldn't give away the details, you see. To do that I might cause a change that would threaten this life I know, adore and am so thankful for.